The Hospice Diaries: Transcending the Traditional
This morning, as I lie in bed, contemplating what the next few days might bring forth on all planes–physically, emotionally, intellectually, spiritually–what the days could look like, I begin to wonder how I could possibly best manage to “enjoy” them.
As I contemplate how to cope with moving my mother from hospital to hospice, the word “creativity” bubbles to the surface.
cre·a·tiv·i·ty – [kree-ey-tiv-i-tee] / noun (source: dictionary.reference.com)
The ability to transcend traditional ideas, rules, patterns, relationships, or the like, and to create meaningful new ideas, forms, methods, interpretations, etc.; originality, progressiveness, or imagination: the need for creativity in modern industry; creativity in the performing arts.
Precisely! I set my intention to transcend all that is traditional; to question the agreed upon realities–the thoughts, feelings, patterns, relationships that our culture has embedded into my mind (our minds) about death, dying, hospice, family, love, self. I set my mind to create new meaningful ideas and expressions, to utilize the most under-utilized resource that humans have: the imagination.
I breathe and imagine. I imagine how it feels to be soothed and comforted. I am strengthened by the calm. I imagine slowly and carefully moving through the day, perhaps slipping once or twice into a dark spot, but always able to catch myself and, once again, find calm. Serenity and peacefulness are there once more to comfort. While my inner-resources are sometimes obfuscated by clouds, I realize that they are always there for the taking. I need only remember that they are there.
In knowing this to be true, in knowing that I have the ability access serenity, which enables me to clear a path to be fully present in these most extraordinary days, I am able to find satisfaction; to “enjoy.”
Spread the word–NOT the icing!